Dear Me: Start of Anew | 365 Diary – Day One

It’s time for me to grow as a person mentally, physically, and emotionally.

Change starts now. Join me if there’s an urge of change within you.

At a point in your life, no matter if it’s when you’re younger or older in life, you know when it’s your time to change. My time started this year.

Throughout the year, I just barely began to change myself into who my ideal person, my ideal self. Barely isn’t the way to go when something this grand is your goal – something that not everyone can mentally make it through. Change is unique to all, therefore there is no true concept of evolution that would apply to every single person. How can one change without a concept? You create your own. This is why so many people are stuck in life in my honest opinion. There’s no plan, no end goal, no actual reason that makes you start to change. You can want it all you want. Starting is always the problem, followed by sticking to it. This is where my change starts from, sticking to it.

New, precise, thorough plans that lead me to a better me starts from being consistent. I’m naturally curious, I seek knowledge, I obsess over what I want to know and do; yet somehow, consistency is the main problem. Why is that? Why can’t I follow a schedule without someone holding me accountable? How can I hold myself accountable? How can I find the answer to these questions? When I do, what is the next step? Questions need answers and I have to find them to progress.

Throughout my life, something has made me change at an earlier time than most:

*I changed in 2003 (5 years old) when my sister was born

*In 2006 (8 years old) when reading became a staple of my personality (led to always doing research)

*2009 (11 years old) when I realized how to manipulate others and myself (not in a bad way)

*2010 (12 years old) when the manipulation was now me

*2012 (14 years old) when I learned who I can be

*2013 when life hit harder than it ever had and my true rebel side was brought out

*2014 when I realized I wasn’t going anywhere in life and I was never the one to become a statistic or gang member.

It’s ends there. Why? It’s not that nothing has made me want to change, it’s that I ignored my dreams and instincts that usually tell me what I need to do.

Those years aren’t just me realizing things; they’re times where I literally changed something profound in myself that kids at that age don’t normally do (as far as I know). My dreams and instincts allowed me to do that, which I am forever grateful for. It’s been three years, more like two since change was still going on until June of 2015, since I recognized and began to change. It’s time to listen again. When or why I decided to stop using my dreams as a way to know when to change, I’ll never be able to answer that. It’s done and over with – life moves on and I don’t tend to stay sad for long over what’s happened.

That’s one of the changes I went through. Anything bad can happen. When it does, I laugh at the pain. Laughter kills all sadness and clears the mind of all the stress and worries, opening a clear mind to think of what comes next.

Not to get off topic, my change once again starts now. Only difference now is that I will fully control what I want to change and will work towards strengthening my weaknesses. My blog is going through a change as well if you haven’t noticed over the past weeks. It’s becoming more personal, more me. I’m not going away from book blogging. There’s just more to my life that I’d like to work on along with reading, writing, interacting, and helping others. 

With that, I decided to shift from book blogging to, ummm, life blogging. I don’t have a name for it, lol. If anyone can name it, let me know cause I don’t want to call it life blogging. This is why I also haven’t been on WP as much with all the ideas of change beginning to sprout.

My current goal is consistency with a concentration on productivity. To be specific, that means I’m not consistent, nor do I do enough that leads me to my dream or end goal. So, I will become consistent while doing what puts me on the path to my dream and other things in life. The end goal is seeing and understanding that I am now on that track. More on that in the time to come. This needs to come quickly, and everyone knows (now you know) I like to live by idealism, so I will accomplish this goal quickly. More pressing matters come afterwards, which is why I can’t spend a good amount of time on this goal. More on that to come also.

And this diary comes to a close. First day, the day of complete acknowledgement, comes to a close. I have to say that not only did my dream show me changing by this diary, it showed that I got the idea from James @thisismytruthnow, so shoutout to you homie!

Growth is Optional


Is anyone else going through any massive changes in life? How are they going or why aren’t they going?

The Truth Is I Haven’t Always Been So Positive

Sometimes I look back and reflect on some of the things I’ve done. All the time I had that could have went to my dream or something else was wasted.

I didn’t want to change into something better than myself to get where I wanted.

I might’ve thought about changing, but change can’t come from just your thoughts – You have to want it. Be true with yourself and it’ll come out as something beneficial to you.

You have to want it AND follow-up on that. Good luck if you’re trying to change!

Dream Big, Dream Often

DannyAbout once per week I’ll get an email asking me how I maintain such a positive attitude. And I get enough of these emails to make me believe people view me as being a positive person, although, I don’t view myself as a positive person.  The truth is I haven’t always been so positive.

In 2007 I began working for Dick’s Sporting Goods as a PGA Professional.  My job was to manage the golf shop staff, keep the shop stocked with the appropriate types of merchandise, inventory and maintain customer service levels.  For anyone who has worked retail, this short story should register with you.

I worked that job and dealt with customers throughout the store; there were good days and there were really bad days.  And as the years moved forward the really bad days began to outnumber the good days 10 to 1.  Customers in retail are vicious…

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The Gift of Self-Acceptance

I preach self-worth all the time. 

You gotta love yaself before you love somebody else!!

  – Mary J Blige

Nothing, but the truth right there!

Niki Meadows

One of the most important things I learned during my journey of self-discovery and healing was to accept myself. Somewhere along the journey of my life, I started to see the flaws in myself and that was all I was able to see. From looking in the mirror to looking within, all I saw was what was wrong.

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In My Twenties

There are many people who do not care for their own well-being. My mom is like that with her family, especially my sisters and I. I tell her all the time to spend money and time on herself all the time, but she doesn’t hear the message. 

Faye is spreading a message with her own observations with self-care (hope I’m using the right words here for your post Faye)

If you need some inspiration, motivation, feel like you deal with the issue of not caring for yourself enough, please take a look at Faye’s post.

Wish her a happy birthday as well y’all!

Culture Eighteen.

It’s my 20th birthday today. And my twenties are going to be my selfish years.

Not out of spite/resentment, but as a form of self-affirmation.

The way I see it, these few years ahead are crucial. Theyare mine to mould, craft and shape in whatever direction I see fit. Personally and professionally. To choose me before others. Unapologetically. To use what I’ve previously learnt, through trials and tribulations of my teenage self, and manipulate those lessons to drive me forward. To not look at a mistake and see failure but to recognise the opportunity for growth and improvement. To live and let live.

To choose me before others, again.

Unapologetically. Honestly. Sympathetically.

I’m learning to follow my own intuition, and two decades later the greatest lesson I’ve learnt from the path I’vewalked is the importance of self-care. To selfishly put myself first. And to ownthe confidence/apprehension/vulnerability that accompanies it.


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5 Things to Ask Yourself Before You Invest Money into Your Blog (3 min read)

For the new bloggers and others who are thinking of putting some money into your blog site, take a look at this to see if that’s a good idea.

No matter what though, it’s your decision.

Millionaire's Digest

Written by Millionaire’s Digest Team Member: Donatella Petitti

Founder & Owner of:Ciao Donatella

Millionaire’s Digest Team, Contributor, Blogging and Successful Living Writer

In life, as much as it pains us, sometimes you have to invest some money before you can get lots of money out of things. That same rule goes for blogging. A more customizable website, your own domain and having unlimited space sounds pretty good, but all that money can be a waste unless you and your blog are “ready”. In this post I am strictly talking about website options, a post about photography, software and eBooks will be coming soon!

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